Over the last few weeks, I’ve been sort of going back and forth about what I do in this blogging space, how I got here, why I started, etc. Lots of thoughts running through my head recently. In the year 2020, I have some big goals for my blog and myself and I feel really strongly that I can achieve them in the next year. I work really hard at what I do, and I’ve never felt so creative. But as we all know, the deeper we get into things, the more our reasoning for doing it changes.
I started my blog when I was 23 years old, one year out of college and struggling to “figure it out”. I was feeling unsatisfied and frustrated with my career choice, my relationships, my finances, and so many other things and it truly felt like there was no end in sight. I started this blog as a digital journal of what was going on in my life. I wanted to be able to look back and say “I remember when I wrote this, I had this going on” or “I had just finished going through this.” I was looking for a creative outlet for myself. I wanted a chance to do something I actually felt passionate about, but had denied myself for a very long time.
Now, I am (almost) 25 years old and a lot has changed. I’ve changed jobs, let go of relationships and started new ones, written over 150 blog posts, and so many other things. One thing I’m realizing though, is that my reason for writing this blog has changed. While I still love writing posts like this one to use to look back on and see where my head was when I wrote it, I’ve also realized that I’m passionate about more than just fashion. In fact, I want to write even more of these thought provoking, open and honest posts. I rediscovered that I love writing. I sometime feel pressured to do things a certain way to appeal to a larger audience. I’m extremely susceptible to the anxiety and comparison that comes with creating a presence online. I have a better understanding of who I am, but struggle to portray that online. I’m extremely proud of the work I’ve done on this blog. I have an extremely strong support system behind me that I didn’t have when I was 23. I know that I want more out of this and it’s something I am truly passionate about and will always be a part of who I am.
In 2020, I want to do my best to stay true to myself and who I am. I want to write about the topics that I enjoy! I want to create the kind of content that makes me happy. I feel like I have so much more to offer and 2020 is the year that I feel ready to find out what that is. I’m not exactly sure where this year will take me, but I’m excited to find out. As far as my plan goes, I will continue to share fashion content because I love it. I’m hoping to create more content and share a larger variety of topics, not just fashion. I want my readers to feel like they really know me and that I’m giving them something valuable when they read my posts. I want my readers to feel like I can be a friend. So that’s my focus for the coming year, just being true to myself, no pressure. I’m looking forward to a lot of good things this year.
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