Ahh yes another start to the week! It’s finally Christmas week, so I am really looking forward to it. I think it might be a slow work week, but I think it’ll be great to finally have some time off to relax, spend time at home and with family and get ready for a new year. What a week we have ahead of us! P.S. I’ve decided I’m going to start linking the exact items I’m wearing or something similar if it’s no longer available. Links will be available in the captions of the photo and please be aware that I use affiliate links, so the retailer may pay me a commission for any purchases made via these links at no additional cost to you! P.S. don’t forget to follow me on Instagram @karenmauritzenn to see these outfits in real time on my stories!
After a busy weekend, I was ready to relax today but I had a ton of things to do honestly. I had put off shooting some photos for a very long time so it was really important that I got those done this weekend, otherwise I’d have no blog posts to share with you this week! After finishing up some photos and some last minute gift shopping, Andrew and I spent our Sunday relaxing at home watching our new favorite show, The Witcher on Netflix. It’s a pretty good show, but really confusing for someone who has never played the video game or read the books. Is anyone else watching it?
This Monday in particular is a great Monday because it’s the one right before Christmas meaning it’s the start of a short week! It’s also the day I finally hit my goal of gaining 200 blog followers. This was a goal I had originally set to meet by September 2019, so I’m a bit delayed but super proud that I made it by the end of the year. I honestly attribute this win to consistency as far as posting content regularly, engaging with my audience consistently and just pure passion. Particularly in the last few months, I’ve felt extremely passionate about what I do here on this medium. I have never felt so inspired and like I’ve found what I’m supposed to be doing. It’s more than just a creative outlet for me at this point and I am so happy to say that I’ve gotten here. I’m really looking forward to the coming year.
Tuesday (Christmas Eve)
One last work selfie before I’m off for one day. It’s Christmas Eve finally and I have to be honest I’m not feeling my best. The holidays at the end of the year tend to cause me a lot of stress and anxiety because I know that change is coming. It’s going to be a new year, a new decade with tons of possibilities open and I know that it’s exciting and I am excited for it, but it also makes me feel sick to my stomach. I’m not exactly sure what makes me nervous around this time, maybe being around family too long, or setting my expectations too high, or the fear of growing older that we all have. I’m not entirely sure, but it gets me every year. I’m trying my best to stay positive and enjoy these holidays for what they are and what they represent. I want to take advantage of the time with family, but it’s just hard. I think it’s okay to have those scared/nervous/anxious feelings as long as you acknowledge them and then work to move past them. There’s no sense in wasting the precious time you could have spent enjoying yourself by being miserable, but it doesn’t mean you have to force yourself to fake a smile. Being self-aware is something I work on constantly to get rid of my not-so-good habits but it’s the kind of thing that takes lots of time and patience. I just don’t want anyone to feel bad about feeling bad during the holidays, because it happens to more people than you think.
Wednesday (Christmas Day)
I woke up today feeling not my best again. I really don’t know what it is about the holidays that make me feel so down, but they do. I felt mostly like I just wanted to be alone so I laid in bed for an extra hour and a half this morning, snuggled up with my cat until I finally peeled myself out of bed and made some coffee. I was feeling really exhausted, like I hadn’t slept all week and just not quite ready to take on the day. Once I got ready for the day, I headed over to Andrew’s to spend the day with his family. Once I had been there for a little bit, I was starting to feel better and completely forgot how unhappy I felt when I woke up this morning. It was nice to be with Andrew and his family, to start new traditions with them and I’m happy that I pushed myself past my feelings to be there and experience my first Christmas with them. We ate lots of food and desserts and had some Moscow mules and wine and watched TV and just talked and relaxed and enjoyed our time. It was my favorite Christmas so far.
I woke up thankful for a short week this week. I’m back at work again today and looking forward to a (hopefully) easy day since a lot of people seem to still be off today. I woke up feeling really exhausted again, but much better than I did the last two days. I can really feel the weekend coming now and that’s giving me the biggest push to finish out the week strong. I’ve got a busy weekend, so I’m really looking forward to it!
Finally Friday!!! I woke up so tired this morning, but I had a super relaxing commute because I took an earlier train and no one sat next to me which is unheard of in the morning on the LIRR. I got a delicious cup of coffee and got to work an hour early so I had time to relax, read the news and drink my coffee in peace. That is as good as a morning at work will get I think! As I mentioned already, I’m looking forward to this weekend because it’s very busy, but I also took off of work on Monday and Tuesday next week (which is technically today and tomorrow when you’re reading this!) so I’m excited to relax finally and by relax, I mean get a ton of blog work done. I am already pretty ahead on my posts, but I want to start planning into February at least so I can schedule shoots and plan out writing! I’m really looking forward to having the time during the week to get this prep work done because it’s really helpful to me. I also find it relaxing because it doesn’t feel like boring tedious work to me. I’ve got so many good things coming soon! On another note, I am super obsessed with my outfit! It’s been a little bit warm this week and it made me really excited to get to wear this cardigan that’s a little bit lighter than what I’d normally wear in December. It’s exciting for my creative outfit juices but probably bad for the environment…
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