This week has definitely started off on a slow note, but the break from being busy has left me a lot of time to get thinking. Recently I’m thinking a lot about the future of my blog, how social media is affecting my self-esteem, and how I can create the best content possible and stay true to myself. I have more on this to come in the next few weeks and in 2020, but it’s definitely at the fore front of my mind lately. Keep on reading to see what was going on this past week!
This Monday literally felt like it went ” MMMMMOOOONNNDDAAAYYYYY”. The slowest day of my life. Usually end of year is a crazy busy time at work and in our personal lives that we don’t even have a second to breathe, but Monday was not that let me tell you. I went to bed too late on Sunday night so I was exhausted (like most Monday’s but especially this one), my coffee wasn’t helping, and I didn’t have much going on. I did however, get a drink with one of my new blogger friends this night which was a nice change. It’s exciting to get to meet other people who have these kinds of things in common with me, because having a sense of community in this kind of industry makes your life easier in so many ways. I am constantly messaging other bloggers about their photography techniques, how they scout places to shoot, how they reach out to brands, etc. I am so thirsty for knowledge in this department because there are tons of techniques and so much information out there, that sometimes it’s overwhelming. Having girls I can go to and ask questions, complain, and celebrate with makes it a million times easier.
On Tuesday, again, I was super tired but definitely feeling better! Like I mentioned in the intro, I have recently been feeling overly concerned about how my posts do on Instagram. They just aren’t doing as well as they used to, no matter how much I post and interact with other similar accounts. It’s interesting. However, this morning I had decided that I need to stop worrying about it so much. Yes, it’s important to get tons of likes and comments to show to brands I want to work with, but not at the risk of lowering my self-esteem. So I decided to post a photo that I liked, just because I liked it. I tried not to be so concerned about how well it would do and just went for it. It was a little nerve wrecking to be honest, but it’s something to continue to work on. My goal is to just create good content that I love and that’s all. I want to show off my creative side, so I’m going to do that in the only way I know how. On another note, it was unseasonably warm today (looking at you, climate change) so I got to wear something other than a sweater today which was nice! I’m really hoping to start looking more put together every day, at some point before the year is over.
This day was fairly busy at work, I had one small but tedious task so I was focused on that and taking my time. I can feel it really ramping up now for the next year, which is exciting for sure. I’m looking forward to see what next year has in store as far as work goes. It was back to being freezing cold again today, so I decided to be comfy cozy and wear a big red turtleneck and some jeans. My mom said you could fit 2 more arms in the sleeves because they’re so big, but I think that’s the best part. Once I got home, I took some time to relax, drink some wine and watch Youtube videos and I also worked on the digital marketing course I’m taking online. It’s through LinkedIn so I can go at my own pace which is nice, but I also don’t feel pressured to do it so it’s taking much longer than it should. It’s just tough to balance all the things in my life sometimes and things like more education seem to take a backseat behind my actual job and my passion project.
Ah Thursday. Thank goodness. I woke up today feeling the most exhausted I had all week. I’ve been getting to sleep really late this entire week and it’s finally all hitting me. However, I saw a post on Instagram and the girl mentioned that on the days she’s not feeling that great, she makes an extra effort to look put together instead of defaulting to something comfy and less put together. So with this in mind, I forged on with my outfit and intention to wear my contacts and a little bit of makeup today. Well, my contacts were bothering the heck out of me today, and my jeans are too big around the waist but at least I got dressed today. I can’t say that I feel particularly better than I would have if I had worn leggings and a long sweater, but at least I stuck with my plan, right? Hopefully tomorrow is better, but I can tell I am feeling some burn out coming soon. Hopefully we’ll get to rest this weekend (once all my work is done).
Friday was a pretty okay day, although I was really ready to get home and relax. It was a bit busy during the day, but not overwhelming. I also had some plans that night, but they ended up getting rescheduled for Saturday which was nice to get to relax, but also inconvenient because I had to change all my other plans around. This is actually one of my biggest pet peeves. I used to be the kind of person that cancels plans all the time, but I’ve recently decided that I need to be accountable because it’s so much easier and more considerate. No matter how much I don’t want to do something, if I have plans with someone, I always try to show up. And if something else is actually more important, I give ample notice to reschedule! I’ve just realized that changing plans last minute is really rude and more inconvenient than anything so I do my best to not do that anymore.
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